Lord, I sit here this morning before you with but one burning desire. I am tired…Stop the World I want to get off. I want to go home!

It’s not that the battle is too difficult. You have armed me with the truth to defend you. As people come out of the shadows to attack my faith they immediately retreat when I defend you with your Truth contained in Scripture.

I watch, as the intense light in their eyes grows dim as each of their half-truths fall to the ground before them, never hitting their mark.

Why, because their words are lies that have no foundation to stand on. Deep inside them they know this for you have put within them a moral compass, their conscience. Even though it is broken and calloused within them the vestiges of the truth remain as echoes within their hearts. When they hear your truth they shut their mouths before you.

I have pleaded with you for years to equip me to stand where the battle is hottest, in the forefront of darkness, so your light can shine the brightest. You have given me the privilege and honor, of being one of your light bearers.

This year more than the rest has caused me to reflect on my past. I have walked with you and done my best to serve you but I am tired.

No, I am not tired of you, but tired of them. You have asked me to love them. I have watched them, listened to them, and had contact with them. But it seems that my heart, which at one time went out to them is now growing cold towards them.

I have become ever more restless having no peace in my mind, my heart or my soul. I come home from work, turn on the TV, listen to the talking heads and look into the window of the world’s dead soul.

It began ever so slowly many years ago, the Mocking of God. A few years ago on an animated program called South Park a new Christmas character came alive and became so popular that you could buy it in stores and give it too friends. It was called the Christmas Pooh a piece of excrement with a Santa hat. It reflected the true commercialization of Christmas by the world.

People laughed, they openly mocked God. It seems life just goes on without interruption for those who mock YOU. They take your Mercies for granted not realizing that daily they are building up their “Divine Layaway Plan”. It is an account called “Sin now…pay later”.

I am reminded of the time I went to a water park called the Schlitterbahn in Texas. They gave me an inner tube so I could float casually throughout miles of river. Although I thought I could stay dry during my trip, I ended up covered with water, soaked to my skin. Life is like that inner tube ride.

We float on sewage, thinking we are above it, but at the end of the ride sewage has permeated every pore of our being. We have become one with the sewage, because we want so desperately to belong to the group and not stand out.

You’re Word says you will judge everyone according to their deed’s, their words, their thoughts, and even the motives of their hearts. You have stated that no one is good enough to evade going to hell.

We continue to judge ourselves by our standards. Standards of goodness and charity like Mother Theresa, Gandhi or today it would be Oprah. The standard for entrance into your heaven is HOLINESS, and perfection.

You proclaim to us in Your Word that every human being has fallen short of this standard and is in need of a Savior. No one is righteous, not one!

People have created a world made in their image, exalting their image not yours. People are building the tower of Babel again. Your statement about when the end comes referring to “It will be as in the times of Noah” is coming true before my eyes.

Why Lord do they have no eyes to see, no ears to hear? Their gaze is always inward and their hearts are cold as stone in the dead of winter.

“The Truth has become the lie”. Wrong has become right in their eyes. Evil has replaced Good and the whirlwind of chaos is upon them as in ignorance they question why they now reap what they have sown.

Soon the world will be celebrating the beginning of yet another new year. What I don’t understand is why we call it new. The newscasts on television still feed me the same information on our human condition. Nothing has changed since the beginning of time and time began with the first bite of the fruit in the garden.

Time and Sin began together and will end together. LORD You have given us a chart to follow, a pre-written calendar of events to watch so we may know the time and the seasons of the coming end of time.

The signs of the end times are joined to the escalating deterioration of the morality of humankind. Our moral compass no longer exists and our diseased Sin nature is out of control as evidenced by our impurity and debauchery; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, and the like.

The Bible speaks better than I can when it says; that the latter attributes of humanity are expressed through their sexual immorality, idol worship, witchcraft, adulterers, prostitutes, homosexuals, thieves, greed, drunkards, slanderers, and swindlers.
God has put mankind on His Anvil and the Hammer Blows of the End Times is Upon US.

If you think Christian, that you are above all this moral chaos, think again. We act like them in so many ways. Often people that do not know your Lord; question whether we do; simply because they do not see any difference between themselves and us. How often do we dive into the sewage thinking it doesn’t stick to us?

Have you ever given any thought to the tears He will wipe from your eyes? Why am I going to be crying before Him? Maybe because as hard as I tried, the motives of my heart are always tinged with pride. Maybe because in my own way I too have Mocked God by trying to blend into the sewage around me like a Chameleon?

Maybe because I haven’t taken His command to share the Gospel serious enough and He will show me the hundreds of times I could have made a
difference in someone’s life by planting a seed for the Holy Spirit to water…but I chose to keep my mouth shut.

I will stand before Him in Silence. He then will give an account of my life on earth using my own words to show where I failed HIM.

To my shame my life is full of what if and if only moments. Maybe it’s not about what we do, But…about what we don’t do.

Thinking about this New Year to come. I know I am weak and I know I am not HOLY. But, I also know HE said my weakness will show His strength if I look to HIM for help.

If you feel the need to… then ask Him to help you match up your walk with your talk.

Grandpa Ernie, Born a Warrior in the Mind of GOD in Eternity Past, to do HIS WILL on Earth… not mine… until HE COMES AGAIN… Very Soon.