Reflections on Growing Old

Maybe you know someone like this?

I wrote this in 2002 after visiting a nursing home.

“The Song that Whispers to my Heart is Bitter…Sweet”

The hours have gone so slowly. Time has been moving like an eternity before me. My life has been full, a wife, children, grandchildren, friends, and relatives. I have much money and many things.

I am Old…so very old. I no longer have the best days of my life ahead of me. I sit in this chair daily with only my memories. Sitting in a chair by the window, waiting for what?

My life is without hope. Nothing to look forward to but a downward spiral of decay and death. My mind speaks to my body but it has long since stopped answering.

All around me, people look the other way, pretending not to see, they turn their back to me. My body, eaten up by age…my soul now ravaged by loneliness…no one even thinks of me anymore.

No one looks me in the eye or extends their hand out to me. It seems my end is to be utterly alone. So I wait….for what I don’t know.

You would have thought I would have found satisfaction from all the years I have lived. That time would have brought me wisdom. But instead of wisdom it seems to have brought me only remorse and pain.

When I see hunger, I wonder why. Senseless deaths, endless tears, needless loss…where do they come from…where do they lead?

I sit and wait ….waiting for what…is there not more to life than this experience here on earth?

I found no satisfaction in the relationships I have had in my life. The possessions I held within my grasp so tightly, still call to me…even though I cannot use them.

Sleep no longer brings me peace…it eludes me. But Wait !
Listen… do you hear its refrain, a sweet greeting from one who cares for me.

It’s my daily visitor, one who comes regularly to me every morning with the dawn,a little bird outside my window.

Every morning I hear his tiny Aria at dusk. His solo refrain begins at the dawn. He won’t be silent until the Sun comes out and is seen.

His song is like a whisper that comes to me on the waves of the wind. I cannot ignore it, it is constant and he is devoted to bringing it too me each morning.

The message becomes clearer to me day by day as I learn to be still and listen. His song is a mournful one, for it yearns for eternity. It has become his task to come to me out of the shadows at dusk with his golden song.

He visits with me while I still have time…chirping a timeless song. His song is mine and it is yours. His is a tiny heart that beats with yours. You see, your heart song and mine will not be silenced until we see the dawn of a new day.

This little bird peers through the shroud of dawn and sees a painless place and the coming One who brings JOY.

“God has planted eternity in the hearts of men”…Eccl 3:10
How do I know that is true, because not long ago a young couple stopped in to see me. No, their not friends or relatives but they have been taking the time to visit me and tell me about their Promise Keeping God.

When we first met I told them, when I look inside myself I only see me. I am alone.

They told me I could have God living inside of me…so when I looked inside myself I would no longer be alone…because God would be inside with me.

They gave me Words of Life and Hope…and most of all…. their time. Now when my little bird friend comes in the morning, I am reminded that Gods mercies are new every day.

Now I know what it is that I am waiting for, the Coming of the Son of God. Praise God, I am now ready to meet with Him at the time of His choosing.

Do you know anyone like me? Do you look the other way, turn your back, and pretend not to see?

The person I described, the OLD ME, does not have to be old like me…because the description fits all people who do not know Christ.

They too have nothing to look forward to, they’re bodies are also being eaten up as they age…they too wait for what they don’t know…they too will experience their end utterly alone…

Unless, you take the time to tell them about your Supernatural, Miracle Working, Promise Keeping, Living God who changed your life.

“In the Beginning God”, Who:

  • Created the Heavens and the Earth
    • Saved Noah and his family in the Ark, from the flood
    • Spoke to Moses from a burning bush
    • Parted the Red Sea, so Israel could walk on dry ground
    • Fed millions daily for 40 years in the wilderness
    • Provided guidance and protection by the Pillar of Fire
    • Conquered huge nations on behalf of his chosen people
    • Provided 10 commandments, written by His finger. Not for rules to follow that make you righteous, but rules to prove you cannot keep them and to show your need of a Savior to make you righteous
    • Sent His Son, Jesus to be born of a Virgin according to prophecy
    • Jesus, who healed the blind, the deaf, the leper and the diseased
    • Jesus, who walked on water, then told the sea…Be Still and it listened
    • Jesus , who fed 5,000 and now becomes the Bread of Life to you
    • Jesus , who took your place on the Cross and died for your sins
    • Jesus, who promised He would come back again!

Yes, from the depths of this living grave I cried out and called for help, waiting for what I did not know…. yet the living God heard my prayer.

I thank God for sending that young couple who spent time with me so I can spend Eternity with God.

Romans 10 vs 14-15 says it all.

How can they call on him to save them unless they believe in him? And how can they believe in him if they have never heard about him? And how can they hear about him unless someone tells them? And how will anyone go and tell them without being sent?

That is what the Scriptures mean when they say…
How beautiful are the feet of those who bring Good News.”

Are you keeping the Good News to yourself,..
the miracle of your changed heart? God has filled my heart with dreams of passion, compassion and a desire to walk in the Truth… what about you?

May your Faith give you Courage to do great things, to be bold and touch someone’s life for Eternity.

I serve the God of Ancient Promises that are still coming true today. The Prophet Isaiah said…”to us a SON is given.”
See for yourself. In the manger… He is there.

The Apostle Luke said…”this same Jesus will come again in the clouds.”

See for yourself. In the tomb…He is gone.
To the all wise God of Israel and the Church. …the Almighty, the Ancient of Days…the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
To the Father, the One who sent …
To the Son, the One who came…
And to the Holy Spirit, the one who stays…and now lives in me. Amen and Amen


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