My Letter to God

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“1 Corinthians 6: 9-11, Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.”

Lord this year more than the rest has caused me to reflect on my past. I have walked with you and done my best to serve you through the years but I am so very tired. It’s not that the battle is too difficult. You have armed me with the truth to defend you. As people come out of the shadows to attack my faith they immediately retreat when I defend you with your Truth contained in Scripture.

I watch as the intense light in their eyes grows dim as each of their half truths fall to the ground before them, never hitting their mark. Why, because their words are lies that have no foundation to stand on. Deep inside them they know this for you have put within them a moral compass, their conscience. Even though it is broken and calloused within them the vestiges of the truth remain as echoes within their hearts.

When they hear your truth they shut their mouths before you. I have pleaded with you for years to equip me to stand where the battle is hottest, in the forefront of darkness, so your light can shine the brightest. You have given me the privilege and honor, of being one of your light bearers.

Yet Lord I say again, I am tired, not of you, but of them. YOU have asked me to love them. I have watched them, listened to them, and had contact with them. But it seems that my heart, which at one time went out to them is now growing cold towards them…because they just don’t seem to get it.

I have become ever more restless having no peace in my mind, my heart or my soul. I come home from work, turn on the TV, listen to the talking heads and look into the window of the world’s dead soul.It began ever so slowly many years ago, the Mocking of God. But the assault on you crystallized in my mind and heart on December 17,1997. On an animated program called South Park a new Christmas character came alive and  became so popular that you could buy it in stores and give it too friends.

It was called Mr. Hankey the Christmas Poo a piece of excrement with a Santa hat. To me this reflected the true commercialization of Christmas by the world. My anger was kindled in my heart against some of my own family members as they laughed along with the world. It wasn’t enough that your name is used as a common swear word…they had to go further.

People laughed, they openly mocked YOU. It seems life just goes on without interruption for those who mock YOU. They take your Mercies for granted not realizing that daily they are building up their “Divine Layaway Plan”. It is an account called “Sin now…pay later”.

I am reminded of the time I went to a water park called the Schlitterbahn in Texas. They gave me an inner tube so I could float casually throughout miles of river. Although I thought I could stay dry during my trip, I ended up covered with water, soaked to my skin. Life is like that inner tube ride. We float on sewage, thinking we are above it all, but at the end of the ride sewage has permeated every pore of our being. We have become one with the sewage, because we want so desperately to belong to the group and not stand out.

You’re Word says you will judge everyone according to their deed’s, their words, their thoughts, and even the motives of their hearts. You have stated that no one is good enough to evade going to hell. We continue to judge ourselves by our own standards. Standards of goodness and charity like Mother Theresa, Gandhi or today it would be Bono or Oprah or Angelina Jolie. But YOU have set the standard for entrance to YOUR heaven and it is HOLINESS, and PERFECTION.

You proclaim to us in Your Word that every human being has fallen short of this standard and is in need of a Savior. No one is righteous, not one! People have created a world made in their image, exalting their image not yours. People are building the tower of Babel again. Your statement about when the end comes referring to “It will be as in the times of Noah” is coming true before our eyes. Even now we see the term of “Extreme Weather” all the time. The signs that Christ said we would be able to see prior to HIS 2nd coming are everywhere. Yet we are like frogs in a pot that do not feel the heat being continually turned up slowly but inevitably taking us to our deaths and then your Judgment.

Why Lord do they have no eyes to see, no ears to hear? Their gaze is always inward and their hearts are cold as stone in the dead of winter. Our Government is now doing everything they can to eliminate Christianity and God from a country that was created for religious freedom with Jesus Christ as its Cornerstone. Government is now restructuring our society to protect the rights of those who are wrong; creating a culture of relativism accompanied by the sound of silence from the moral majority who disagree. (Maybe there is no moral majority any more?)

“The Truth has become the lie”. Wrong has become right in their eyes. Evil has replaced good and the whirlwind of chaos is upon them as in ignorance they question why? The answer is that they are now reaping what they have sown. For every action there is a consequence. Even if we are sorry the consequences of our actions will remain to haunt us for life. The world continues to celebrate new years one after the other. What I don’t understand is why they call it new. The newscasts on television still feed me the same information on our human condition. Nothing has changed since the beginning of time and time began with the first bite of the fruit in the garden.

Some of us think that time began with the creation of the earth. Not true, for when YOU were finished creating the earth YOU said it was Good. We know the earth was created in eternity and will be re-created for eternity. Time and Sin began together with the fall of Adam and Eve and time and sin will end together with the final fall of mankind. YOU have given us a chart to follow, a pre-written calendar of events to watch so we may know the time and the seasons of the coming end of time…and the new beginning of eternity for glorified mankind.

The signs of the end times are joined to the escalating deterioration of the morality of humankind. Our moral compass no longer exists and our diseased Sin nature is out of control as evidenced by our impurity and debauchery; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, and the like. YOUR Word speaks of the attributes of humanity near the end as being sexually immoral, idolaters, witchcraft, adulterers, prostitutes, homosexuals, thieves, greedy, drunkards, slanderers, and swindlers.

To the Believer that is reading this: do you think that you are above all this moral chaos? Think again. We act like them in so many ways. Often people that do not know your Lord question whether we do; simply because they do not see any difference between us and them.

How often do we dive into the sewage thinking it doesn’t stick to us? God made us to exhibit love to one another in joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. He says the acts of sin are obvious and that those who live like that will not inherit the Kingdom of God. If you are a true believer then you have REPENTED and turned 180 degrees from the path of Sin you have been on. You are a new person…you have changed.

Maybe it’s time for you and I to realize what the Holiness of God is really about. Maybe it’s time for you and I to begin respecting His Words in the Book He gave to us called the HOLY Scriptures. Have you ever given any thought to the tears He will wipe from your eyes? Why are you and I going to be crying before Him? Maybe because as hard as I tried, the motives of my heart are always tinged with pride. Maybe because in my own way I too have Mocked God by trying to blend into the sewage around me like a Chameleon?

Maybe because I haven’t taken His command to share the Gospel serious enough and He will show me the hundreds of times I could have made a difference in someone’s life by planting a seed for the Holy Spirit to water.

I will stand before Him and use words to give an account of the life He gave me to live out before HIM. He will then give an account of the times He had given me words to speak, but I chose to remain silent. To my shame my life is full of words never spoken. Words that were meant to give life by planting seeds into the hearts of people that God put into my path. Thousands upon thousands of words never spoken have filled my memory with If Only Moments. Only God knows the answer to “what If I…obeyed and spoke”.

In the end when we stand before HIM and HE wipes the tears from our eyes; the lesson we will learn is that our lives will be measured not only by what we did, but also by what we did not do. I know I am weak and I know I am not Holy. But, I also know He said my weaknesses will show His strength if I look to Him for help.

If you feel the need to… then ask Him to help you match up your walk with your talk …I have.


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